Lately, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed. Life seems to be moving at lightning speed, and I can barely keep up. Trends come and go, new products drop daily, TV shows air relentlessly, and even half-done projects become obsolete before I can finish them. Meanwhile, the kids are growing up, and my days feel shorter than ever.
Whether it’s due to a condition like ADHD or simply my personality, I feel a deep tension building within me, urging me to do more. Yet, despite this pressure, I struggle to stay motivated with my day-to-day tasks. I find myself craving something more, although I couldn’t tell you what that something is. It’s as if my soul, gut, or brain is trying to communicate with me, but I can’t decipher its message. So, I keep piling more tasks onto my plate, hoping to stumble upon whatever it is I’m searching for.
My mind is constantly racing. I’ll be engrossed in one project, only to find myself starting another at the drop of a hat. I think it comes down to how I prioritize my tasks. Passion projects and hobbies often take a back seat to mundane tasks like fixing a broken toy or addressing a household chore. The real challenge arises when I attempt to return to a project I’ve set aside. In the time between abandoning it and revisiting it, I’m bombarded by countless other “brilliant” ideas. I become distracted and grossly underestimate the time needed to complete each new endeavor. As a result, I find myself with a growing pile of unfinished projects months down the line.
Returning to a project after a long hiatus often means spending a significant amount of time relearning and reviewing what I’ve already covered—a major blow to my motivation. It’s demoralizing to realize that I need to reacquaint myself with concepts and skills I’ve previously mastered. Some may argue that once you’ve learned something, you should retain that knowledge. But for me, repetition is key. I need to perform a task multiple times before it truly sticks. If you’ve ever worked with design software, you’ll understand the frustration of knowing what you want to accomplish but struggling to remember the necessary tools and techniques.
I’m writing this after a three-week hiatus, realizing that I need to make the best of what I have. After spending three days bedridden due to COVID, I’m confronted with the reality that I have little to show for all the effort I’ve put in. I purchased the domain for this website back in 2020, intending to start my blog. Now, four years later, I should have over 900 posts, yet here I am, posting my first one. But hey, at least I’ve started. Here’s to hoping for better days ahead for all of us, amidst the chaos of our busy lives.
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